Airport 

I couldn’t admit to anything 
I couldn’t stand to lie 
I’m not doing nothing walk with that when you die 
I couldn’t stop shaking my head 
And crying won’t help 
Don’t tell me that I can’t tell myself 
And I wander to the airport 
And take all my pills 
And walk the runway 
With a hundred dollar bills 
And its cold out tonight 
And I have no comfort 
I have no drink no food
I’ll sleep at the airport remember when I said I would stay 
And the rain on my face 
And we didn’t sleep that day 
And I started to pray 
And I saw a light in the sky 
And blood in my eyes 
And all of my lies cover you in boils 
Death will never come and life is gone away
I’m laying on chairs full of pills in my head 
I’m laying on chairs pretending I’m dead 
I’ll step in to the sky and never say good bye 
And I’ll miss everything 
And I’ll miss the way you sing 
And I touch you one last time 
You almost let me 
One day I’ll be coming home 
From the everything I was 
And burning under my skin 
He looks down at the sea 
He looks like he could be me 
One day I’ll be coming home.


Suicide cult 

I’ve given up on trying to sleep 
I’ve been on a caffeine high for a week 
I can’t function in this place 
I can’t understand the human race 
I changed my clothes in your car 
While you were driving to the bar 
And I threw up all your toads 
And you left me on the road 
I think I’ll join a suicide cult 
Beg the christians to try me out 
And wait for hours in your yard 
Slit my throat from ear to ear 
Lifeless body taken away 
I’ll be given new life some day 
They are the ones who understand 
The reasons behind my plan 
You lick my wrists on sunday night 
I know I’m wrong cuz you are right 
We line up to get our food 
She says she’s in such a good mood 
Touch her while you still can 
Because you are the industry man 
Your pants are so tight you can’t breath 
The room is too hot for you to leave.


Search for the tree of reason 

And I’m standing here waiting for death 
In this broken down road and my head is a mess 
And where was the tree when I needed it most 
And I’m going insane waiting for post 
And if I get there I don’t know what I’ll do 
But I’ll cut off my legs if I don’t find you soon 
And if it was you who walked a thousand miles in my boots 
You would die a thousand times and you would dig up my roots 
And you sit there with nothing 
And I’m out here the same 
I’m searching forever for my sick little game 
And I’m walking forever and three sticks go by 
And no lizards in the road will stop my eyes 
And you can cut me down and salt my earth 
And stop me from dreaming cuz that what I’m worth 
I search for the tree the tree in my head 
Because where was god when I need to be dead 
And now I’m laying still on my cold metal bed 
Waiting for nothing the nothing in my head 
The tree is never mine I’m running out of time…. 
The tree is never mine I’m running out of time….


You're built for me 

So I was living in a tree 
I was me and I didn’t see you
Five days have past since last time I saw your face
Fucking jesus where’d you go 
Looking around looking at the show 
Don’t know why you smell so good 
Gonna find you if I could 
You know me I’m right here 
You can cum my sweet dear 
You never know where I’m gonna be
I think I might be in me 
Give me all your fucking pants 
Dance with me and I’ll come home 
Meow 
I will come to your window 
Climb up see what’s in inside you 
I know you your sleeping in my fear 
The bedroom it’s red now I know your eyes are open 
I’m looking and waiting 
Where the hell did you go 
Fucking god damn you 
Now give me all that you saw 
Give me your fucking pants 
And dance and I will come home 
I dance with the puppets 
You know that it’s rupert’s 
I know you’ll come home dear 
I know your built for me.


Broken girl

In no uncertain way can I say that everything I touch goes away 
I hate so much my skin feels so cold but not as cracked as I am old 
I never know what I need to say to make all the bad things go away 
I hurt you and destroy you to no end 
And every morning I expect you my friend 
I don’t deserve the things I have 
The things I do were never that 
If I could just see two feet in front of me 
A happy boy is what I’d be 
I rent a car to leave my life from time to time 
I send a card to my sweet wife 
I wish you were here 
I need something 
The cats never stop my hate 
They just run and hide under things 
I’d take something to slow me down but 
I take the car to a different town 
Root beer floats and candy bars 
Jason montgomery where are you now 
What did you see that none of us could 
Who was on the phone that only you could use 
But I digress with my mad rant 
About memories and forgotten pants 
I’ll never know why I’m so slow 
At understanding why you go 
So far away from the land we live 
And of all these things this is what I give: 
A plant that I will never keep alive 
A shoe with no sister she didn’t survive 
And empty box of popcorn 
I was hungry while I wait 
And the kiss that I sold at the castle’s gate 
All these things mean little to you 
But they’re the world to me 
I tell you it’s true 
I’m the one who broke my girl 
I’ll never forgive myself.

Slice 

I’ve been writing books for dead children 
I read them all the time 
Last night I slept on your front lawn 
Cuz that is gone 
You make me want to gouge my eyes out 
And I’m gonna laugh at you 
Give me something I can do 
Give me something just from you 
I need a box to put all the things I’ll never use again in 
Cuz maybe one day I will slice open my head and you’ll fall out 
Maybe one day when I will pray for the end of time 
Maybe we will make a rhyme and live on the moon and eat nothing, 
Nothing but fun times nothing but fun times for me and you 
I’m sick to death I’m gonna die 
I think my health is so bad 
I want a cigarette and I’ll blow it in your face 
Because today is the last day I’m gonna see this place 
Cuz you know that I’m the bottle man 
Pick me when you can 
The bottle man 
I’ll open up the drawer look inside 
For something more 
Just a little touch of the flu 
You know it’s what I’ll give to you.


The dead fish symbolizes everything wrong with my life 

You know me 
You see me 
Love the street 
You are sweet 
So far away 
Need you today 
Please come with me 
Please stay 
With me 
Stay with me 
Tonight 
Please sleep with me sleep 
With me 
My love 
Tonight 
It’s alright 
My love 
Tonight 


Waiting for the rain 

There she was just a chimney log 
Sitting on the street with the boneless leg dog 
Staring at the moon with the look in her eye 
She never understood why this was goodbye 
Walk through the headstones on broken down legs 
Looking for the boy who used to sell eggs 
She forgot the song it’s been so long 
Wishing for the rights to all become wrong 
Wipe off all the rain all around her eyes 
Remembering the days and listening to pies 
Our fence was black in the road trip of doom
It will soon be over and we will be there soon 
Never forget the hand that covered up your eyes 
And never forget the man who crawled up deep inside 
And the baby duck is empty with a taste that just won’t die 
And the kite that I built you it just won’t fly 
And curled up in your mouth and licking the strawberries off 
She sits with you and waits and she feels so very soft 
While I’m sleeping in an ally waiting for the rain 
You’ve climbed up my tree laughing with out pain.


Save me

I smelled you, you smell so go and I touch you and it was what I could do please forgive me I’m not feeling like my self tonight I can’t understand why I’m a man and all that I can do is give to you all the things I’ve been sworn not to do give me a chance to understand all the things I am all the things I am are shit I know that you are something I’d love to see in a ballerina dress with a man who’s got a beard down to his knees oh please understand the reason why I’m gonna die tonight thinking about all the things I can’t do any more I am so tiered of listening to doubt about me I’m so wasted tonight I can’t fight away the things you say please comfort me you can’t can you you smell like all I need tonight I can’t sleep I need to be alone with the one I love sitting in a small town with a man he tells me what’s right and wrong he knows my plan place me on your stool you know it’s okay spinning around in my house of blood and kittens… save me…


Zombie boy 

I don’t think I can stand 
To look at another human again 
They smell so bitter sickly sweet 
I used to live on the street 
Taken away and bound up tight 
Lick your eyes in the middle of the night 
Freshly shaven lunar girl plays kick the can 
In my world 
He lives in a car and eats tofu 
Now here is what she’s gonna do 
Start up fires in your world 
Hate the way you tell me to 
Read that box of cracker jacks 
I’ll do what you tell me to do 
You’re dripping all over my floor 
Tie you up and you’re dripping more 
I love you when you talk to me 
I’ve given up on every thing 
Kiss my hair and go to sleep 
Jenny’s softly counting sheep 
It’s the end for me tonight 
Zombie boy is just out side 
Spinning gold with baby’s heads 
Selling all my kids for bread.


Chinese rain 

If I ate your body whole I’d fall in an endless dream 
I’d walk along jubilee street on boots that run on steam 
I’d pull up a chair for you you’d never come home again 
I’d fill you full of pirate fish and then I’d stand up on your head 
Please water me my eyes are dry 
I care about your machines they are strong you say in chinese rain 
All that matters now is gravel filling up my boots 
Crawling on the ground the frog man standing tall 
I spent a week on jubilee street just to get away from you 
I found myself a brand new hat and ate some whiskey stew 
Please water me with chinese rain 
And fill my boots with sand 
Tear me down with chinese pain 
Deport me from your hands. 
Well that’s it now.


Jenny’s step 

When jenny walks out of her house 
She stands on the step and opens her mouth 
She sees what’s outside the grass and a hill 
And she makes no sound and she stands still 
And the day goes on with mouth open wide 
With nothing out here and nothing inside 
And the sun goes down and jeremy comes home 
And he looks at jenny with her eyes of nothing 
Shake her he says to the man in his head 
But he knows he can’t and he can’t go in 
And the night is long on jenny’s step 
And the hill is black and so is her head 
Because there’s nothing in jenny’s eyes 
The way she looks out at that hill is really no surprise 
When nothing happens any more 
And nothing ever will it’s time that jeremy said no, 
No sleep in weeks no food or drink 
A mind full of drugs over flowing in the sink 
Stop it forever is a thing for that 
And the neighbors don’t come by 
But they don’t have a cat 
Something died on jenny’s steps 
And it will never come back 
Not the way it was 
She turns to jeremy to say 
I’m going in but it’s okay 
I’ll be here again tomorrow.


Creep (fuck rock an roll) 

I’ve just got two hours left 
All I can do is hope and pray 
One day you will become a real girl, 
One, 
Never mind what I say today 
Never let me go the rain 
The rain on your boots 
Feel it never needing anything 
Thank you so much 
One day hope and pray 
One day you’ll become a real girl 
Save you from what I do 
Never know how to stop the rain 
Please let me sleep tonight 
Fuck rock an roll 
Fuck, fuck, fuck, 
Fuck rock an roll 
Fuck it all 
Never fall down 
Hate so much 
Touch me 
Touch 
Fuck rock and roll 
Safe.


Boneless 

And the rain will stop soon 
And this day will end too 
And we’re dripping with water and spinning in puddles 
And I have never needed it more than today 
When you have gone away 
With nothing to say 
And my bag is my kingdom 
But I’m not the king 
I’m useless and bloody 
And a wreck of a mess 
One last time to say it 
And you walk away 
One last day to be here 
But you know I can’t stay 
I’m losing your battle 
And I can’t stand up 
And when I first started 
I was given one cup 
And I used it forever 
And today forever ends 
And I’m crooked and nothing 
And I’m no one’s friend 
I smash up my knees 
And loose all my sight 
And the rain is dying 
And so is the night 
Now I’m beaten and covered 
In everyone’s blood 
In a white room with nothing 
Boots covered in mud 
It’s time for surgery 
To fix all my faults 
They will take me, create me, 
And make me their own 
Slice down my chest 
No anesthetic you say 
My insides are out 
On a rainless godless day 
It takes forever 
And now forever ends 
With me on the table 
I’m less than a man 
And this is what you need 
To keep me alive 
No rain and no me 
And nothing inside 
I feel me going paler 
And there’s nothing to do 
And there’s nothing for me 
When there’s nothing for you.


The town fair 

The man sits on the train 
He’s looking at the sky 
Red is the name I use for him 
He’s coming home tonight 
And I think its alright to stare at his shoes 
Leather and cotton and all you do 
Coming home coming home 
To the town fair 
He’ll meet you there 
Beg for you to come open the sky 
Cracker jack eye blessing the ground 
With all we found 
So far away today
It’s a tragedy how he has to be 
The last one out the gates tonight 
Up high kissing the sky 
Blessing the moon with the look in your eye 
The town fair 
He’ll meet you there it’s the last night you’ll ever know 
End of days are sure to give all that you need 
Bless him and his greed 
For he is the one who sings songs 
He is the one who’s gone tonight 
Final trip home I can’t understand 
Why you sit and spit at him 
Lets take a tour go to school 
Of life and death and I am all you want 
Please stop me 
Town fair 
Last one out of the gates 
I hate everything 
Stop the way I’ve got to get off the carousel, 
Carousel please stop it now 
Too much for me to take last train home 
To the town fair bless him 
And all he’s done for you 
I am nipping at the heels of the metal man 
Begging him as much as I can 
Please let me off it’s going too fast 
Take all my clothes away 
Spit on my face 
Give me a reason not to go home.